Monday, May 19, 2008

No memory

Today is our first day "flying solo." Addison and I have been hanging out today in the quiet house as Ben is at work again, Jay and Liz are very far away, and Mom went home to Norfolk on Saturday. We have been chilling. We took a walk to the local grocery store and bought coffee, watered the newly planted flowers in the yard, took a nap, visited with some friends that stopped by this afternoon. For the most part it has been great. . . except that Addie is cranky today. I think she misses everybody. I don't think she knows how cool I am to be around yet. And I think she has no memory. Just ponder this one - I would get cranky too if every time I was hungry I thought I was going to starve to death. I would be easily upset if I thought my poopy diaper was only going to increase in its poopiness. And I might not be consolable if I couldn't remember soft hands cleaning, soothing, patting away this overshadowing unhappy. So she kicks her pudgy feet and thrashes around with her mittened hands and gets 3 shades darker instantly. And since she is temporarily myopic, she can't even see the help that is coming. Hmmmm, Addison darling, I don't think you are alone in this one.

8 comments:

Julia said...

That's was quite the description chick. I can't believe it. I'm so excited to see you and your baby, and I can't wait to be in your shoes. I'm sure that ounce I'm there I will want my solitude back, but not for a little while anyway. How is she sleeping at night? I'm so happy for you and would like to call you but I lost your number when my phone got run over (I wasn't attached to it when this happened) but I lost my phone and all the numbers non the less. ;) So, if you could either call me, or send me an email with your phone number I would love to visit with you. Love, Julz

Cindy Payne said...

Hold on Crystal.
each day gets better...
and I know that Addison knows
your voice better than anyone's!
She will soon be comforted by
your presence and you will both
feel better!!

bret said...

Sounds like you all are doing great!

This morning Jack and Cole were playing in the living room, and they have this "prayer bear" that says a prayer when you squeeze it. I think that talking toys tend to be creepy, but Jack has no problem with it.

It made me think about the things kids learn to fear: the dark, imaginary boogeymen, etc. Right now there's only one thing that Jack fears: separation from Mommy and Daddy. He wails when Tracie leaves the room (not so much when I leave... oh well).

Which then made me think of all the things we fear that are pointless and weak compared to our God. The only real danger is separation from Him.

Okay, there's a blog I need to post...

Anyway, enjoy this time with Addison. Tracie and I are going to bring you guys a meal, maybe tonight? I'll call Ben today.

Toplov Trio said...

Crystal, you are too funny! You may think Addison cannot decipher her mother, but she can. She may be cranky due to hunger or a poopy diaper, but really she just wants to be loved by mommy! Keep the pictures coming!

Dr. and Mrs. Thomas said...

5 months later my days seem strangly the same....only add in many smiles, occasional laughs, larger meals, larger poops, shorter naps, and a few small toys. It's great!!!

Alyssa said...

Babies are so wonderful. I actually cry when I look at Trinity now because I remember and forget what she was like brand new! So halarious. She's only 7 months and I feel slightly greedy because I want another little baby!

Lori said...

Ya wanna take a trip to Milkworks with me for their mom get-togethers every Wed. and Fri. morning at 10? Let me know---they saved my life when I was stuck in the house in the dead of winter with a very new baby.

crystal said...

Lori, I'd love to. We are working on Addie's sleeping schedule - right now Ben and I still feel like we've been hit by a truck at 10 - but I'm hoping she switches days/nights soon. I'd also love to go to the Zion Mom's thing with you. When is that again?